Seeking happiness
For the past few months, I am becoming more desperate to find the answer to the question: What makes life meaningful?
In my search for answers, I started reading translated Buddhist texts and the SGIA magazine - Indigo. I figured that there are so many interpretations to life that there is no right or wrong answer. What matters most however, is that we strive to make ourselves happy in any moment and we have to face each hardship with courage and without fear. Because I really want to stop all the worries that I’ve had in the past, I began chanting two months ago. I am finding it very difficult to keep up with it everyday, even for five minutes but at the same time, I know that it is getting closer towards September, when my contract is due to end. I know that I really like the job and the company that I am working in, but the more I think about it, the more I worry. The only way to get out of it is to stop worrying, work harder and to take action.
As part of the Buddhist discussion group on Sunday, I told my fellow members about the situation I am going through and how I wanted to make my chanting more consistent. They reminded me that we are responsible for what happens to us and what we experience. Together with the encouragement my friends have given me, I am determined to set myself one goal and to chant in front of it as a means of motivation. Hopefully, this will drive me to actively enjoy each moment and do my best at everything in the hopes of accomplishing my goals - my number one priority. And even if my contract doesn’t get extended, I should not feel defeated, because at least I will have tried my best and I will have learnt a lot through this experience.
Whether I can maintain this thought is yet another challenge. In the coming weeks, I hope to persevere with faith and confidence.